I don't know about tomorrow....

Yesterday was one of those days you wish you could never have to go through...I had to have an ultrasound of my gallbaldder - and when the doctor called to give me the results, she said that I, indeed, did have gallbaldder problems - but what was more concerning to her was two dark spots that appeared on my liver.

I would need to have an MRI - did I want to do that before I moved or after? Wow! I was totally unprepared for hearing that - especially a few days before our move when I'm just up to my ears in moving issues and packing, etc.!

So - the evening held a few tears - some phone calls to my sisters and my mom, and just resting in David's arms. And today - there have been a few more tears as I have thought about how this could come out. Of course - the cancer word is the one that I think of most. I'm not ready to die! I love my kids and my husband so much - I'm not ready to even think about leaving them.l

But in the last day and a half, I have thought more about that than I have ever thought about it, and I'm still not ready to entertain those thoughts. I had the MRI today - it was very cold and very tight-fitting. I've cried out to the Lord many times throughout today as it all came to mind. And a friend tonight - Rhonda Calvert - called me back after I had talked with her about it to just pray.

So - after a bit of prayer and thinking about this more - I thought I'd write a bit here. I kind of feel like it's all my fault - especially if it is cancer. I'm so fat - I've overeaten for so long. Did I think that I was just going to be immune to all the troubles of obesity? Was all the food worth it? No way! Not at all!!! Lord - please rescue me tonight from all the wrong thoughts and from all the wrong ways I have lived. I want your blessing and I want to be completely yours.

On another amazing path, however, God has brought a young family into our lives through the internet and craigslist - and there is a chance we might rent our house to them. I've been praying for a miracle - and wondering what miracle God might do, and it looks like it might it just might happen! Tomorrow, we'll have lunch with the dad and let him see our place and Flint Ridge, etc. It's pretty amazing if it all works out.

More on that tomorrow!!

Moving Again!

Well, the move is almost upon us! We have one more week from today, basically, to get all the rest of our possessions, etc., ready to be moved into two trucks! That's right - we are renting two Penske trucks...and I have to drive one of them!

I feel like I've been in this holding mode...packing things up a little at a time, taking care of bills, school registrations, college registrations!, homeschool registrations! - oh my! But I'm ready to file the rest of my papers and let it go for a couple of weeks. I think I'm paid up on all my bills and most of the companies contacted with our new address.

Now...we're just waiting for a miracle from God to provide us a renter for our home! I can't wait to see how He provides...but it is very hard waiting and waiting...

I'll post some pictures from the move after we're gone, but I have to say I'm really looking forward to that pool in the backyard at our new place!!

We've had a very eventful summer! First to Iowa to see Isaac graduate. Then Jonathan off to camp for two weeks for his leadership training. Then a short camping trip with some great friends. Then taking Joy to Quartz Mountain for her 2 week music camp! What an experience for her!

Then...Charis headed off to Arizona for 2.5 weeks to spend some time with cousins and a week of camp at Ironwood. She had such a great time. Daniel then went to his camp at New Life Ranch for a week.

While Charis was gone, we headed to Colorado Springs for an Evins family reunion July 8-10. what a wonderful time we had! It was so fun - and it was especially great to see Charis again! We sure missed her.

Now - we're home, and our time in Oklahoma has about one week left now. Amazing.